All of my life I have second guessed myself. Before I went through with any decision I made I had to ask others what they thought, and generally, I went with what they thought. Where did that get me? Nowhere. I was a broken person living for those around me. I had no mental strength at all. I thought I was a useless failure. I never felt true happiness. I just sat around wallowing in self~pity. I really believed I had no place or purpose here; that I was useless and mentally ill. Well, I'M NOT and neither are any of you who may think the same thing!! God loves everyone of us and has a place and purpose for each of us. I used to think that was just words to get people to join a specific "church". In some cases, maybe, but when the words are spoken through the Lord~ then NO THEY ARE NOT. Reach out and listen to Him if too many people have failed you; let HIM lead you. That is how I found that those words are true and continue to be blessed as I continue to let HIM show me....
Anyway, I am writing this because I feel that the more I am blessed and the more I do to improve my well being the more people push against me even those I thought cared for me. I know I have failed tremendously in my past endeavors, but let me tell you something~ In my past I had no confidence which caused me to give up and I had no real support which caused me to fail to see the point and made me feel incredibly weak. BUT now I have the Lord God on my side, and I have become a very strong person through Him and I am VERY confident He will not fail me. God DOES NOT make mistakes, and He DOES NOT let people fail when they are working for His purpose. So if you do not support me and you think I will fail, that is all well and good. Everyone has a right to his opinion, BUT I will prove you wrong this time.
I am not saying there will not be times that I or any christian becomes overwhelmed by worldly pressures and breaks down and or makes mistakes. That is a given, but God is there to pick up the pieces. He gently lifts us up and brushes us off as Brother Paul has said. We may break to the point that we feel we cannot take anymore and think that our world is caving in, but if we just cry out to Him and pour our souls out and let Him have our pain and sadness and..He will heal us. He will get us there. We WILL NOT FAIL. I am CONFIDENT. GOD DOES NOT FAIL THOSE WHO ARE WORKING TO SERVE HIS PURPOSE. So if you doubt me being a success in my endeavors, you doubt God.
I had to put this out in the open because I feel that people I expected support from are only offering discouragement, but that is all well and good because the more you try to discourage me, the more I am gonna call upon the Lord's strength and the harder I am gonna push to prove you wrong~just like when people doubted I could raise Emily.... The Lord is my Rock, my Redeemer and my mighty strength!!!! Praise His name. Lord, You are the First, the Last, and the Encore...
"And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love Him, who have been called according to His purpose"~ Romans8:28
P.S.
I am officially enrolled in online classes! I have my first assignment and am ready to roll!!! THANK YOU< LORD!!!
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