I think the Lord is looking down on me tonight snickering kind of like we snicker at our children for things they fear, but we know there is no reason for that fear. We prayed in small groups tonight. I wanted so badly to speak out in praise to the Lord for the healing He is doing on me, but I just could not pray aloud in earshot of the group. The more I tried to get up the courage, as the others prayed aloud, the more tense I became. My chest was tight and quite uncomfortable by the end of the prayers and the room seemed to be swaying back and forth. Now that I am calm I am shaking my head at this illogical behavior. These people are my christian family. They are not going to reject me. If anything, they would lift me back up and, yet rather than praising the Lord, I was sitting there panicking. My best friend, Rhonda, tells me to take baby steps and not push myself. she is right. So here is my next lesson in releasing the control freak within myself.
I, once again, am calling upon the Lord to help me to be still and know He is God rather than over~analyzing and anxiously babbling about how I hate this part of myself. I want to be able to stand in front of a room of people {just a small one. LOl} and speak to them with confidence, and you know what? Through my Lord, I am going to get to that point, and when I do I will praise Him so boisterously that that room full of people will fall on their knees and know He is God like He is asking me to do right now. ....
God bless all of you who are reading my words. I love all of you and so does He. Be still and let Him have the wheel. he will let us know when we are ready to step forward. Who knows more about the creation than the Creator Himself? So, until that day, I pray that I will learn to be still and to know.
"The Lord appeared to him that night and said, 'I am the God of your father Abraham. Do not be afraid, because I am with you. " Genesis 26:24
"Do not be afraid, but speak, and do not keep silent; for I am with you" Acts 8:10
No comments:
Post a Comment